I spoke about transparency back on day 79 and my gratefulness for finding it in others. Through the transparency of others, I have received comfort. Through the transparency of others, I have received aid in finding the road to deliverance. When we are transparent, we help people in ways we could never imagine. Because I am “dying every day” to self, my aim in life is to allow God to use me in ways he so chooses without worrying about what others think of me.
Speaking of transparency, maybe this can help someone. How many times have you heard someone say in regards to a relationship, “I didn’t see that side of them when we were dating,” or “I just had no idea what to expect.” I was always a firm believer they had to be lying. That person cannot claim to have the Spirit of God and not know. I can more believe that they knew or had warning but did not want to accept the truth. Some years ago, there was a man that had gripped my heart before I had even met the man in person (we were getting to know each other long distance). Maybe about a month before I met him in person I had a dream about him. It appeared in the dream that he and I were probably standing in a kitchen with moving boxes along with someone at the time I thought to be maybe his mother in the dream. I had never met her. Something very alarming in the dream is that when this beautiful specimen talked I saw he had the tongue of a snake (looks will trip you up). Are you thinking what I think you are thinking? You probably are. Anyway, I kept that dream to myself and just tried to bury it in my subconscious as just something crazy. Within the first year of getting to know him, we had seen each other twice. It was at this point that I was no longer even listening to the Spirit within. I was just rebellious. After about a year, I broke it off because I knew the relationship was just wrong from the beginning; not even considering that crazy dream that still in my mind meant nothing. (The details are perhaps “transparency” for another time. J )
Almost every year he would call (our birthdays were a day apart). You know I was a “back pocket” girl—right? At some point, there was a break in our yearly communication. About 7 years later we started back communicating; I have to admit I was the culprit in reaching out (those spiritual ties are so real—BREAK THEM). After 7 years I took a trip that to my surprise allowed me to meet his sister for the first time—his older sister. Remember the dream with his snake tongue and the woman I just assumed to be his mom? You guessed it! The woman in my dream was his sister! Even then, I still did not want to believe this person was a beautiful specimen of a liar. It was not just the dream, there were plenty of indications but I made excuses because after all on plenty of occasions he said the words, “I love you.” I have told you before that sometimes “Charlotte” annoys the heck out of me. Yes, sometimes I write about myself in the third person. I am a writer—what else do you expect of me? Anyway, after that trip things came to the surface that released me from that 7-year dark spiritual tie. It was as if God said, “Here is my grace showing you the other piece of the puzzle. I am trying to help you. What are you going to do with what I’ve shown you?”
Sadly, people go on to make detrimental life commitments and hold on to, “I didn’t know.” If anyone is transparent with you when it comes to “any” type of decision you are planning to make in life, thank God for them. Not everyone is trying to hide things or make you think they have never had to overcome something.
If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just [true to His own nature and promises], and will forgive our sins and cleanse us continually from all unrighteousness [our wrongdoing, everything not in conformity with His will and purpose]. (I John 1:9 Amplified)
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