For An Audience Of One

Almost a year ago I got rather frustrated with my purpose in life.  It wasn't that I was unaware of who I was made to be as an individual but it was that I was at a place in life where I didn't know how to best utilize what I was made to be.  One day I decided to ask God to show me exactly what I was suppose to be doing with my life (often we fail to consult our Creator).  And when I asked this question I was not seeking the "general" answer most church-goers have already heard (your purpose is to live your life to serve God, etc.).  NO...I was looking for specifics.  I was aware of one involvment I'd discontinued maybe 3 to 4 years earlier that I knew I needed to return to.  I'd walked away from it for personal reasons and at this time that I started seeking last year, I felt it was time for me to return to that...so I did.  Also, around that same time I decided to inquire about serving in a capacity through my church that would not just confine me to serving while at church but it required me devoting time and making a 2 year commitment to this particular service.  Because of the timing of my inquiry I had to wait a year (this is the year) to become involved.  So, this Saturday I have the priviledge of finding out more about this service  before I commit to it.  Of course, I already know that I'm going to commit.  You see, this service involves so many of my natural qualities.  People naturally come to me with problems; sometimes they want advice, sometimes they just want a listener.  The frustrating part is when you want to reach out to people who don't want what you have to offer them (which is why this service will be so rewarding-I'm going where people want it).  I was thinking about this frustration earlier before sitting down to write this and I thought, 'How frustrated God must be to have the gift of peace, freedom from life's strongholds, wisdom...so many gifts yet many reject them'.  It's frustrating to have something valuable to offer others but to find they don't want it.  Truth is while I'm sure it breaks God's heart to see us wonder endlessly, I doubt it's frustration.  We become frustrated because we aren't seeking out those who need and desire what is in us to give.  I've made a commitment in 2011 that if whatever God will have me do is only for the audience of one, then for that audience of one so be it.  For every life we touch, that same life touches at least one other person.